I did not for the life of me know what the Lord had planed for me since last I blogged oh my darling Angels do you see my hurt...
what my life has become? I do so often wish my life end that there is no use to my life.. but I keep plugging away..
getting nowhere fast..
the I took on top of the epidurals in my back not working my legs getting numb, the inability for my back to an nerve to with stand me I keep falling the firemen keep coming to pick me off the floor, finally I had back surgery which left me still numb needing another surgery.. it has been a year and 5 mons. and I still am not going to get better I have got to accept this but I don't and I am worthless to myself and most of all Paul, he is stuck in a between a rock and a hard place...
he doesn't know what to create out of our mess. our love, our marriage, the home, family, finances,
the daily home chores,
I am tring not to let them all fall on him.. yet a lot more than it does should does..
the landscape is awful. it mostly nees a lands scaper Pauls back is so bad we have git to get him an Mri
the medicine isn't doing much good either.. one day at a time sweet Jesus, please pour your healing down on him heal his back gace hiwith love peace and kindness from me and everyone..
thank you
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