7/0817

Well here I am in Ct and there it goes big crush.  I am not very good at this family social this time
wiyh bee
ing handi apped.. 😿😿
I let everyone down around me  just had to let out the deep secret in my heart how much it hurts that they all hate me..  I try year and they try and with that I get angry at there hatred and tell myself not to be bothered.. now here it is 10 yrs hidden in nc  no friends.. sick only  jesus knows know whats going to become of me and paul...  I failed miserably as a human..  so god sorry jesus mary  and family.. sorry to myself.. it just survival... day by day.. I will pray for healing praise yu I pray.