evening prayer room

It starts that I have a prayer room and I have it and I don't have a way to close off everything and be alone but I am alone I live alone there's no one here but me but mental illness tells me that people are peering in and it's like I have an antenna on my head and they're picked up and received messages but it's crazy and I don't really try paying attention to it someday it'll all get lifted but today I want to pray for sanity to be restored to sanity and become a whole again also to keep what I have and not to think I can get better like myself the way I am and not care what others think or say just know that I'm okay just the way I am and that I can it gets better if I look for the better it will get better and I'll feel better than I do I don't feel like great about my life is it's not accomplished in any way except that it's the end of the the road